Ready For My Close Up/Lost Church 

Just thought i'd link a little press about the Songwriter's Showcase my buddy James (James Kelly from the mighty Norcal trio Redwood Chrome) asked me to do with him at the Lost Church in Santa Rosa. To say it was a fun, cathartic time would be underselling it greatly. 

Big thanks to James, Catherine for handling the sound,  Damian for writing this article and being fun to hang out with that evening, and everyone who came out. 

I'll write some more in a bit (because of course I will), but I just wanted to flex my “look ma, I got some press” muscles, since they've started to develop more, you know?

What I Do - What Do I Do? - What Have I Done?? 

I know I've said it before, but I love what I do. Wasn't always the case. I've had a lot of jobs. A LOT of jobs. I'd say most of ‘em I didn’t love. That's life.

I've sold newspapers, circus tickets (to benefit the differently abled - don't ask), cars, funeral plots, perfumes and colognes….also, I've sold myself, I've sold safes and who knows what else? I've done construction, retail, been a mover, a shaker, a deal breaker, a mark, a mook, a taxi driver, worked factories, steel mills, and whole bunch of shit that I've pushed out of my brain. Hell, I'm still selling myself. What do you think this is?

I'm from the Delaware valley. Lived all over there. Worked all over there too, naturally. Always playing and writing music, always working some crap regular job, trying to live a lifestyle befitting a large mammal in America in the 20 or 21st century. That's right, I've lived centuries. Sorta. So this makes me come off as abrasive to some folks out here on the west coast. It's strange. I'm a big ol' teddy bear, and I never want to hurt anyone, you know? That goes for people's feelings too. I don't want to cause folks any harm in any capacity. The world does that naturally for us. Doesn't need an accelerant.

Oh jeez guys, I'm afraid this might be a verbose one. I'm supposed to be talking about what it is I do, music-wise and I'm just at the “I may be abrasive and I've had lots of jobs and I've lived a life” portion. Moving right along…

Don't know what my deal is. What my problem is. The diagnosis. Don't know. We didn't deal with shit like that in the 70s and 80s. There was no spectrum per se. So, now as an adult male, I get to go back through the years and be like “Oooooh, no wonder music was such a balm to the soul. Life was a chaotic shit-o-cane that just hurled stuff at us non stop until suddenly the ones that remained alive looked around one day and thought ”Huh, haven't died or been killed yet. Nice. I have (or had) a job and a spouse and children? Whoa."  And then you just keep on for another couple of decades if you're lucky. THEN you perish. Nothing new there. 

Music takes me out of that. You know, when you're young and you have that realization of what reality truly entails? The thing that makes a lot of us choose to believe in some higher power gobbledygook, hoping that delusional thinking will lead to truth. Which, is indeed something. Me personally, I never went for the big lie. It still seems silly to me.  Music is real. That other stuff? Not so much. Believe what you want to believe, I'll be over here in Realityland. Sure, it's bleak and sucky at times, but it's also vivid and fresh as can be, which is what an artist wants in their creative life at all times.

There have been so many artists over the years that shape what we do, how we live, how society moves. Then, there are the songs. Trillions probably. I dunno. I'm not going to reach out to the professors at MIT to get an accurate number, but it's up there for sure. So why is it that so many of us gravitate to the same ol' songs time and time again. Sure, it could be as simple as “it's catchy” or “it's just a good timeless universal song that everyone can feel throughout time.” But let's face it. It ain't that. 

Let's blow through some examples.

Hey I told you this was gonna be a long one. Strap in. 

Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison. 

I dig Van. Sure, not as controversial as some, but not without controversy either. But holy shit, just listen to his albums Veedon Fleece or Astral Weeks, or hell, most of his stuff pre-98 (or thereabouts) and you'll find something that will touch you profoundly more often than not. 

Personally, I think Van is way on the spectrum. It may not surprise you to learn that Northern Ireland wasn't at the forefront of research into various neurological disabilities back in the 1950s, right around the time Van's folks would have had to have thought “You know, our young son is quite brilliant in some ways, especially when music is involved, but in other ways he's maddeningly daft and difficult to reach!”

So it's not a surprise that it was a totally acceptable thing to throw alcohol on top of it in massive quantities back then either. There was no diagnosis, no medicine really so heavy drinking was the next best thing most likely. So Van must have spent countless nights in clubs, singing and playing sax and blowing harp any chance he got. Listen to his first band Them sometime. The ones who birthed Gloria. Pure adrenalized Celtic lightning filtered through the blues and R&B. A mean outfit, to say the least. 

Then Van comes over to New York, thinking he's the cat's jammies, and hooks up with a mobbed-up writer/producer named Bert Berns. In true 60's fashion, Bert saw the talent Van possessed and signed him. Then it turns out that the contract was shady. Van owes a bunch of money and songs that he doesn't have. Then Berns dies. Then the wife gets the mob to help her out with getting this Irish musician in line. Something like that. Brown Eyed Girl came out of that somewhere. I think it was recorded right before things went really south between Van and Bert. Oh, and Van also recorded like 31 nonsense songs like “Blowing Your Nose” and “Want A Danish?” out of spite to get out of the contract quickly. 

I mean, he also recorded TB Sheets in there somewhere, which is a really good piece of music in my opinion. I'd ask “why not TB Sheets instead of Brown Eyed Girl?” but I guess a 3 minute song about young love is an easier sell than a 10 minute long blues dirge about watching a good friend die slowly from Tuberculosis. I get it. 

Anyway, sure, Brown Eyed Girl is a fine song. It has that riff and the organ sounds great. It's breezy. It's also as overplayed as a song could be. I remember growing tired of it when I was around 10 and it was on the radio all of the time in the 70s and 80s. Then, you'd hear it played at every bar, by every band and person with a guitar at a bar or restaurant. The store. Dentist's office. 

This isn't Van's fault. Hell, it's not even Berns' fault, or the mob. I don't think it's the mob anyway. Wait, is the mob responsible for the ubiquity of Brown Eyed Girl?? Did I just uncover a conspiracy? “If an hour goes by, and I don't hear that sha-la-la on the airwaves, I'm going to be back here at this station, only this time I'm gonna be the pretty one and you….well, you ain't gonna be so pretty when I get done with ya.”

So what is it? Payola? That only goes so far into the culture. I still hear it on the radio when I listen to the radio sometimes, but not as much. I will hear it more often than not when there's someone at a winery or brewery or bar though. I don't know why. “Because people seem to like it.” Okay. That's good enough. I mean, I ain't playing it, but that's their right. Personally, I think it's a type of Stockholm Syndrome. We're tethered to this piece of sonic sha-la-la until we want to marry it, no matter how it makes us feel. Beats me. I'm no Oliver Sacks. 

Where was I ? Oh. The songs that are played to death. I know I've mentioned some of these before but here goes anyway:

Simple Man by Skynyrd: 

Look, there are too many goddamned simple men on this Earth, which is why society is in the awful spot that it's in, and that's why I won't play this song. They don't need an anthem. We are firmly in the era of the simple man. Not “less is more” simple either. More like “I fly Old Glory out the back of my truck so I don't forget where I am!” simple. “Everything confuses me and that's gonna be everyone's problem” simple. Pass. Besides, Skynyrd's Tuesday's Gone has a similar vibe and is a far better song to my ears.

Special mention: Come on, “That Smell”? Who doesn't think that song rips? I'm sure when I'm playing with my combo (to be announced at an indeterminate time) we'll attempt “That Smell” quarterly. Just because. 

Mama Tried by Merle Haggard:

I love Merle. However, it never fails, some drunk guy who smells like manure and Axe body spray will yell “Mama Tied!” to which the only response is “Mama didn't try hard enough.” It's always the men whose mothers don't talk to them anymore that want to hear this one. 

I mean, don't get me wrong…I like a lot of shit that folks would def consider to be the crappiest of the crappy, but I don't play it out when I'm at a gig. Unless someone requests it, of course. If that's the case, throw a tenner in the tip jar and it is ON.

And look, I'm not a music snob per se; I just like what I like, and there's more than a few things I won't play. If I'm not a fan of something, I'm not going to play it well. That's how it works. You deserve better. So when someone asks for “Wagon Wheel”, I just let them know they will hear someone play it within the next 48 hours if not sooner, if they want. You'll enjoy their version too. Everything isn't for everyone, which is something we all need to learn from time to time. Another thing: there are a trillion songs out there. We can easily find common ground, song-wise. That's a big part of the fun, honestly. 

The other stuff I don't get down with is as follows: 

Pop punk. Green Day especially. Just never got it. I mean ..I get it, but hard pass. Power chords, nothing exciting musically to my ears, and the lyrics usually mention boogers at least once per album. 

Special mentions: Real actual punk. From Little Richard to Husker Du. I love the Ramones to an unreasonable extent. Seriously. I know not one but two songs off of Dee Dee's “rap” album “Standing In The Spotlight”. Call me on that. The Replacements, Undertones, DK, X, The Damned. So much gold there. Okay, and for whatever reason I won't complain if you crank up All the Small Things if we're 15 hours into a road trip. I'm only human. Turn the lights on, and so forth. 

The RHCP, and while we're at it, the faux funk thing that continues to linger about round these parts. Tower Of Power was a while ago. If I had a nickel for every Tower of Power ex member I've met around these parts (not as many as Dead hangers on), I'd have 65 cents or so. I love funk music. LOVE it. A lot of what people are purporting to be funky is not funky at all. But much like the sudden influx of Ai music, people will listen to and dance to anything. Even me. It always amazes me how locked in kids are to my guitar when I perform. I'm not one who find joy or solace or whatever it is people get from having kids around, but you know what kids? You're welcome to groove to my stuff as long as you don't knock my gear over, cry excessively or get me sick. 

But turn my sleeve anytime you want to talk about Parliament, Funkadelic, Parliament Funkadelic, P-Funk All Stars, Bootsy, Isleys, anything James Brown adjacent, the Midwest funk scene in the ‘70s and ’80s, and more. 

Grunge. Ooph. Not a fan. I remember each time throughout the late 80s and early 90s where it would be like “Have you heard The Smashing Pumpkins? They're the most original thing in music, and they're quite possibly the saviours of rock n roll.” I know rock n roll is mainly just a catch all term for "music that kicks all types of ass", regardless of genre" so there's nothing that needed saving really, but I'd be curious and eventually find my way to an album of theirs, listen and be like “Oooooh I get it. This is terrible. This critic must hate their own ears or something. Pity." 

This also extends to (in no particular order): Alice In Chains, Pearl Jam, STP, Staind, Korn, Collective Soul, Third Eye Blind, DMB, Foo Fighters, and a bunch of other things I don't feel like thinking about right now. I like adventurous chord progressions, wide-ranging subject matter, all kinds of tones, but grunge did not have that for me.  Not my jam. Alternative music is fine, but when grunge came along, it meant “an alternative to anything you'd ever want to listen to” to me. Not good. Nirvana has a few bangers, plus that Seattle scene gave us Mark Lanegan (Bubblegum is a fave). 

Modern Country, say from 87 on. Okay, maybe I'm a fuddy duddy luddite, a lib or whatever but I'm not in the market for a pickup truck, incest sans consequences or blowing the rich people who hate me more than they hate themselves. I have zero beef with the production techniques of 90s and early aughts R&B, but somehow listening to Nashville producers slap that stuff onto a track about how “daddy's littlest victim of everything pours whiskey in his coffee cup cuz he's a rebel” (note: as of June 2026, at least 60 percent of country music released today has a line about pouring whiskey into a coffee cup) doesn't sit right with me. It must be the ears and brain. I'd worry about offending someone with this paragraph, but if you're listening to a Morgan Wallen or Stuffy Brakes or whoever, I'm guessing words and sentences aren't really your thing. Explains the attraction to acronyms. Sorry, that is to say the attraction to words that start with the first lett….never mind. 

I do enjoy the following more than just a little: George Jones (anything and everything.. by far one of my favorite sounds is the Possum's voice), Willie, Waylon, Tammy, Margo, Dolly, Buck, Johnny, Webb, Roger Miller….too many to list here. A wealth of great artists in that genre, but to me, Americana picked up where country left off with Garth or whomever if not sooner. 

The Dead. Okay, before you start launching Jerry rolls at me, let me just say: I dig the Dead. I'm one of the “early stuff” people. I've been exposed a lot, and while I have hung out at more than a few Dead show parking lots (for reasons too obvious to get into), it was never my true love like it seemed to be for so many others. I'm not going to fake something for the sake of wanting to fit in, which there's a fair amount of in some of those circles, but as always, as long as you're not hurting anyone, what do I care?

The thing that I've always dug about the Dead was their fearlessness, set-wise and of course, their interpretations of covers and how they rarely played anything the same way ever. That's something I try to bring into my own performances when I can. Truthfully, I can usually tell what a band's going to do just by watching them lumber onto a stage and pick up their instruments. There's nothing worse than knowing exactly EVERYTHING that is going to go on. That goes for my own gigs too. Unless it's some super specific set that's been requested or something, I tend to leave things a bit open to whatever the moment brings. Is that scary? Nah, it's more of a cathartic exhilaration thing. 

Sure, some of the stuff that doesn't do right by me is a personal preference thing. I don't play contrarian because I think hot takes will make people remember me or whatever the point of saying some contrarian bs is. It's my ears. When they go electric, it loses me a bit. I always say I'll get into the Dead and go down the Dick's Picks rabbit hole when I'm in my mid 60s or so. Save some stuff for later. Plus, hopefully LSD will be legal by then. A guy can dream. And trip. 

Shouts go to: Ship of Fools, New Riders, that one Weir album that is escaping me, and some other stuff that is escaping me. I blame the parking lot at JFK, July 7, 1989. 

Ultimately, my mission is this: 

You hire Juke to play your winery, your party, your brewery, amusement park, etc.….you're getting a show. Not a Vegas spectacle, no light show or lasers. I'm just a guy with an acoustic, an amp, and a mic…and I'm going to play whatever seems right for everybody in that moment. 

You want to talk to your sister and sip some Pinot as golden hour comes on? I can score that for you, give it the unobtrusive sonic sunbath that a golden hour with friends and fam deserves. 

You want to drink some beer, wine, cider or have some cocktails and get loose? I can score that scene for you, too. Upbeat, buoyant acoustic rock n roll, classic country and soul, kinetic punk and funk and more is what that calls for. Fun reigns supreme. 

Or you can lean in and listen to some original songs that feature such things as a guy drinking sangria in a car with a pet rat, a mother of 3 trying to get through her day without totally losing her shit, or songs about where society has been, is now, and where it could go.  Plus some hand picked, farm-to-fork cover songs from all over. One hit wonders, Motown, old cowboy and celt ballads, British Invasion, new wave classics, etc. You know, something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue. 

No set is ever the same. That's my tribute to the Dead. 

That's the Mission Statement until further notice, kids. 

Okay, now I'm going to get my fingers to shut up and go do some work. If this comes off prickly, negative, smarmy or anything of the sort, sorry. Just wait until you read about the stuff I LOVE. That's coming. Probably once I put up a fancy crypto paywall. Sky's the limit!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Monotropa Uniflora 

“Okay, I just thought you were dead, that's all.”

This was my boss, Nick, letting me know that he was sort of glad that I was still amongst the living. He'd been trying to reach me all morning as I drove down to Delaware for some gig I'd been assigned. Delaware is a lot like Purgatory. By the time you realize you're there, it's too late. 

The night before, there was an incredibly intense storm, with tornadoes in the surrounding areas that really fucked shit up (not to get too technical on ya). The crazy part was that there was no cell service on my iphone because of the storm, which never happened before that I know of. So I couldn't let anyone know that my phone wasn't working. I wanna say this was around 2015 or so. Simpler times. Jesus Christ I'm just now realizing that this tune is 11 years old now. Fuckin' hell. Sorry for all of the expletives but time is a motherfucker. 

Like so many other songs of mine, this is another co-write with my wife. She was plunking out some riff on her Fender Kingman bass, some slinky disco thing. I think this was December. Actually, it may have been Xmas eve. 

Our collabs usually go like this: we'll work something up for a bit, then I'll usually try and bang out some words, see if there's a bridge or a coda or intro or something missing maybe, and then she'll usually move on to something else. I think this probably took like 2 weeks to write, with the words coming out all at once a little later as I worked a desk job where they mostly left me alone and some people knew me as “Zack” for some reason. 

Two weeks to write meaning we would just hang out in our studio in our off-time (or our “on-time”) and try to find the nastiest or smoothest synth sounds, motifs and riffs while we searched for the melody and the song's true shape or whatever. This is usually some of the most fun you can have as a musician, really. 

Having an instrumental track with a solid arrangement that you can just slather whatever you want all over is a gift. Throwing on some headphones and just going for it. Punching in. All of that. Then you can't avoid putting down your dummy vocal track. Unless you're lucky enough to already have the entire song written, more often than not you may find yourself with the words and music, but no melody. Sometimes you don't even have the words. You just kind of let your subconscious take over until you come up with something you can work with. Hell, sometimes you might get so lucky that you just blurt out the words and the melody in one take. That's happened a few times in my life. That's up there with just picking a guitar up and just having a fully formed original song fall out of you. I love when that happens. Happened twice last Summer (Okay Days and Sunlit Ann).

What did this have to do with my boss thinking I was dead and therefore not reporting to work? Good question. Do I have an answer? Oooh that's a good question too. 

Basically, I was able to eventually get to the site my boss wanted me to report to (if I was still alive of course) and after a weird morning of driving back up from Delaware to Marlton NJ taking all sorts of odd backroads, I sat at my desk and the words just came out of me. So I guess technically I was paid to write Monotropa Uniflora. 

I have to find the most realized recording we did of it, because it did sound slick and futuristic, with my wife and I singing falsetto in unison, because that seemed like the thing to do. 

Anyway, we delivered the bomb. Oh wait, I mean here's an impromptu version I played on the radio (Wine Country Radio's The Drive 95.5 with Daedalus Howell). This might tide ya over:

 

 

 

Crack It Open/Tone 

Tony Gallagher. Tone. Toner. I forget some of the other choice nicknames he had, but there were some doozies. Fragile Francis was one for a while I think. That was after he seemed to have gotten in his 6th automobile accident within a two year period. 

He was the drummer in a band I was in way back. Actually, several, but Skilly was the one that we were in together the longest. Like 10 years? Maybe more. For those 10 years, it was me and my wife (the lovely and awesome Jenny, on bass and vox) and Tone, playing all types of gigs around the Delaware Valley, from the cool to the bizarre to the icky. Bars, VFWs, bowling alleys, pizza joints, parties and god knows where else. Oh that's right….diners too. 

I don't know when I first met Tony, but it was in the early to mid 90s if I had to guess. We were even roommates for a bit back before I really knew him like that. He was just some hyper kid who played drums and worked at Radio Shack and was always recording some crazy shit. He could get some good sounds out of the jankiest equipment. He also built his own instruments, like the ToneSweeper, a theremin like box with buttons and dials that I always would use for weird sweeping sounds, or you could also make it sound like a set of angry bagpipes, which came in handy more than you'd think. 

We started playing with him after I heard a cassette he had given a mutual friend, who then gave it to me. It was a bunch of different types of sounds. Things that sounded like Sebadoh and Pavement. Things that sounded like field recordings. Things that sounded like they were recorded in a nice studio. Funky things, pretty things. We were impressed and looking for a drummer, so I reached out. 

We started jamming pretty regularly. Usually in his dad's radonized basement in Bensalem. It smelled of engine grease (which explained why the soap of choice there was Gojo) and cigarettes, but at least we smoked back then so our olfactory sense was suitably diminished. We went through several secondary guitar players for a bit there, but then finally we decided to go it as a 3-piece. Which is actually kind of freeing in a lot of ways, sonically. 

That's also where we learned to write songs for real. Up until then, writing songs was usually a haphazard, slapdash affair where you'd just try to make something real happen for 3 minutes. Granted, I had a few songs I had written on my own, or had co-written with band members, but I honestly don't think I really got any good at it until my 30s. Before that it was usually “sing some nonsense over this track” or “here's this riff, let's play it over and over until the muse steers us towards something listenable”. I will say this: there is nothing as fun (for me anyway) as having a mic in front of you, headphones on, while a new-to-you track plays and you get to mess around with your vocals. Or when it was time for keyboard overdubs, whether it was needed or not. That was always the best too.  We'd always make sure there was room in the mix for some MicroKorg shenanigans that each one of us would lay in the mix. 

Tony had knack for writing stuff that was different from the kind of thing Jenny and I would write. We'd always be envious of how good his demos would sound, whereas our demos always sounded like they were recorded on a Fisher Price: My First Demo toy. The songs were usually good too. Tony would write on the lighter side more often than not. Some of his stuff was downright hilarious. Some of it was poignant though too. I still play his song “At The Laundromat”, a simple sweet little jangler about two people meeting. You'll never guess what happens next (Spoiler: They fall in love). 

(Okay, I'll finger blab about Tone some more later on in some other blahg I'm sure, but let me try and quickly tell the story of how Crack It Open came to be. )

Skilly kind of went on hiatus after we had moved to NJ, and Tony had already moved to somewhere out by New Hope, PA (home of our fave place to play back then, John and Peter's!) so being older and 90 minutes away didn't do Skilly any favors, so we sort of dissolved amicably. We'd still get together and jam every couple of months, and show each other our newer demos and songs we were working on. We were getting real good by the end of Skilly, as far as recording and writing went, but we were even surpassing that by this point. 

Tony came over one Sunday afternoon in the winter, I don't know what year. 2015 maybe? Beats me. It's been a minute, that's for sure. Anyways, we're at the point of the hang where the weed has smoked, some drinks were had and we're doing the “let me show you some pics of the kids” thing where we share our demos and what we've been working on. 

I'm sure Jenny and I had some stuff we thought were heaters, and Tone had a few potential bangers in his arsenal too, but the last thing he played us was this moody-ass synthy thing he had mostly done using his MicroKorg (he got so much mileage out of that thing, I remember him seeing a clip of Warren Ellis using one in The Bad Seeds years laters and being like “that motherfucker is ripping me off!” which was impossible but still cracked me up to no end). We listened to it a few times. Then we started doing that thing where we just set up a mic (he had one of those portable Zoom studio thingys) and started taking turns trying to come up with something to sing over it. 

I think I came up with the melody, but it was too high, so naturally Jenny was assigned the role of vocalist for this one. While her and Tony went line by line or stanza by stanza, I was sitting on our stairway jotting down whatever words and phrases came to mind. The music sounded like the drive you'd make from Philly to AC, hitting Roosevelt Blvd and then 676 and heading over a bridge and before too long, you're in the barrens. I wanted to capture that, and the little weird pockets in and around NE Philadelphia and South Jersey. I heard it as though it were a purple and orange sky getting split in half by some massive jalopy on the way to Margate or wherever. Stopping by at a cousin's house to refill your Zippo and maybe score some shitty acid. Maybe you're just saying hey, and realizing you've stayed too long despite having just arrived. Something like that. 

We put it down on Tony's Zoom device and at some point, it got late and he split. We didn't have any blank discs so he could burn it for us to hear, but we agreed to get together again in a week or two and finish it and mix it. 

I remembered the chords. At this time, it was in the key of B minor, but the chorus was in C, where it went from a Bmi to D thing then into the F to G part, but shouldn't work but it does. Nowadays when I sing it, I do it in Emi. But when it would kick into that F to G chorus? Butter, baby. 

So, as the week went on, I figured “fuck it, I'll just re-record it in Garageband or ProTools" or whatever I was using then so we didn't have to wait a week or two to hear it. So I did. It wasn't as cool as Tony's, because I didn't have his damn MicroKorg, but it was passable. Jenny laced it with some nice vocals and we messed with some synthy sounds trying to capture what Tony's original demo did, but it fell a bit short. 

Tony comes over. We smoke a joint and have some drinks and BS for a bit, and then it's time. I put it on. “Check this shit out, son” I probably say, waiting to hear his amazement at our almost recreating of his instrumental track with better vocals (now that we had more time to work them out) and all. He listens. We all do. It stops playing. 

“Yo, that's really fucking cool! When did you guys do that? That's pretty sweet!” he says. 

“You wrote the music, you goof.” We had to tell him. 

“I did? When was that?”

“Like 2-3 weeks ago.”

“Wow. That's actually pretty good.”

He had completely forgotten that he wrote all of the music. We told him we were taking it. 

“Taking what?” he said. “Looks like it's yours now. I have way too many other songs to finish so …have fun!”

So we took it. The song that he composed all of the music to. Sure, I handled the words and Jenny and I hammered the melody out, but that chord progression is what seals it for me. 

I won't hit you with the bummer of Tone's passing, which we found out, after the fact, in a not-so-ideal way about two years ago. That sucked. We had lost touch for a bit. Life, you know. Kept up for a bit but then sometime around the shutdown it was impossible to get a hold of him. Then I found out why. 

RIP Tony. Love ya buddy. You were one of a kind. The sound of one hand clapping (Literally, Tony could clap using just one hand). Uniquely gifted and hilarious, there ain't gonna be another one of you. 

 

Juke

 

CRACK IT OPEN

The ride is so majestic

The Challenger splits the distance

Leave a trail of roaring empty

Sissy Jane in Nameless County

 

Crack it open

On the highway

Split the ahead like it's steam

You want to scream 

Because we feel the same things

Still keeping it somewhere between

 

There'll be rat tails

Cut off half-tops

Skee Ball Palace run

Pulled on

Onto the Parkway

Rohm and Hass, the fire hung right there

 

Crack it open

On the highway

Split the ahead like it's steam

You want to scream 

Because we feel the same things

Still keeping it somewhere between

 

The Consommé Life 

2024 kicked like a mule in a house of mirrors, but 2025 kind of fucked me up but good for a minute there. Okay, more than a minute. No matter. I'm here. You're here. What more could we want?

Long story short, I had a bunch of my esophagus yanked out due to some cancerous nonsense going on in there. I can own up to it, though I'm not sure it's necessarily my fault. Then again, could have been the years and years of whiskey, cigarettes, extremely spicy foods (I'm looking at you, Italian long hots and Han Dynasty…which reminds me, if you're ever in Olde City, go to Han Dynasty) and a myriad other poor choices. The cosmic odds.

It was a lot to take in, but in true Me fashion, I pushed through it all, managing not to miss many days at my regular warehouse job and not missing a single gig. I was able to schedule the follow up procedures (which involves having a balloon shoved into your esophagus and then expanding it…big fun on the bayou for sure) around the various gigs I had booked, and thankfully the esophagus and larynx aren't really that close together. The pain was a bit much at times, but I could sing with my usual Pavarotti-esque prowess, so the distraction was a welcome thing in the wake of the esopha-stretching.  

The thing that I still remember, clearly as can be, is my wife and I driving back from SF in the November darkness, driving over the Golden Gate and looking out into the blue night and wondering what the fuck just happened, and worrying about what was coming next. 

The recovery time was an emotional time for the wife and myself, as we awaited various results from this test or that. Then there was the food stuffs. Soft foods. Pureed. Broths. Smoothies. Mashed potatoes. I became a goddamned gravy master, whipping up a mean beef gravy using beef consomme, Worcestershire, onion powder plus whatever else seemed appropriate at the time.  Plus, life was throwing all types of holiday fun our way as it was already. Life is gonna life. 

Naturally, the first gig - coming just a couple of days after that initial 4 hour long procedure - was a dinner time set at Hopmonk Sebastopol. Warming up the folks who came to see a Fleetwood Mac tribute act. I was on some pain meds and some THC drink for the pain, but I remember the show went well enough. Pain be damned. I remember the guy who booked me, Bill, posting up to watch me play a few songs. I could tell he could tell something was up with me, and I'm sure he imagined the worst as I was feeling pretty awful. Thankfully, I had been through the worst part already earlier in the week so all I had to do was focus on the music. Same as always.

 Then I got to repeat this about 7-8 more times. The esopha-stretching. I used to not like being put out by the anesthesia but after the 5th time what can you do? I got to know a lot of hospital folk, that's for sure. Luckily, I had some healthcare folks that were very helpful, and just as important…they were funny as hell. I imagine you have to be in that environment. 

It got to the point where I would play a gig the day after a procedure. What's pain but a mere distraction anyway, right? You just push through. Music is a salve, so I'm sure that had to have helped. Between the discomfort in my chest and my wack-ass thyroid giving me brain fog like a mofo, I can only imagine this has all made me a stronger performer. Or maybe just more weathered. If I were any more weathered at this point, I'd be a damn vane. 

So all in all, I'll be around a while longer yet. No more procedures for quite some time. The fog lifts. I have a run of shows coming up that are gonna be more than Sonoma will know what to do with. Sure, the world is exploding and society is imploding, but screw it…let's keep surviving together and  let us share a laugh or a meal or a joint somewhere out there, down the line….

 

Looking forward to seeing you out there.

 

Juke

 

 

Some Heroes Are Best Met In The Hereafter 

Ah, Uncle Lou. Lewis Allan Reed. The guy who helped launch 10,000 bands (usually with the help of his own group, the esteemed Velvet Underground…you know the Eno quote about them, I'm sure). A much beloved figure in the rock n' roll world, he showed us what the great American novel could sound like when you set it to 3 or 4 chords. When I was a kid learning to play guitar, this was huge. 

I loved reading. It was a thing we used to do back then in the 80s. We didn't have smartphones or a 24 hour news cycle, so you had to make do with what you had. Which was awesome, of course. Whether we knew it or not. So reading Lou Reed say that he wanted an album to be like the great American novel was very influential to me. It seemed impossible, but the kind of impossible you wanted to go for anyway. 

In the late 80s, as luck would have it, just when I was discovering this guy through his RCA Greatest Hits cassette after seeing him (with Robert Quine on lead guitar, no less) on some awards show where it was clear that not only were Lou and his band the coolest folks in the auditorium that night, but more than half of the attendees had no idea what was happening until he hit the chorus of Walk On The Wild Side, if not a little sooner. Maybe. 

After that, it was trips to places that sold records, tapes and CDs. I usually would peruse the bins at truck stops, drug stores, supermarkets and so on, because you would be able to find the weirdest music for cheap. I liked weird stuff. Bootleg beige cassettes with things like George Jones and Gene Pitney singing together. Some terribly mastered Ellington tape with a slowed down version of The Mooche that I was obsessed with (Shout out to Philly late night horror hostess Stella and her show, Saturday Night Dead, a show that came on after SNL back in the 3 channel days where she'd show old, bad horror films). Collections of 60s and 70s hits or oddities, or old country comps with titles like Trucker Tales Vol 8.  I forgot where I copped that “RCA: Best Of Lou Reed”, but after that,  I was hunting for his music everywhere. Then New York came out. 

Reading about how Lou Reed was back again, after already being back a few times, was exciting. Seeing an article in the entertainment section of the Philadelphia Inquirer about Reed's just released album, I read it in record time and couldn't wait to get it. I probably got it later that day I bet. I'm thinking this had to be in January sometime. 

The album did do my head in. Then, the search got broader. Trying to find everything I could that was Reed adjacent. The Velvets, John Cale's stuff, Nico's stuff, Mo's stuff. Finding a cassette of the Doug Yule-led VU album Squeeze for 99 cents, then still feeling ripped off. It's not a good album, although it always cracked me up to think that the great UK band Squeeze took their name from this album (then Cale produced their first album). I guess it would be like a mid aughts band calling themselves Cut the Crap or something. 

Getting that first VU cassette with the banana, and White Light/White Heat on the same day was massive too. Smoking a bowl, parked on some street in some neighborhood as song after song came on and answered a lot of questions that I should have already been asking. After European Son screeched outta there like a hyena on fire, I was so frothing and eager to unwrap the next cassette and dive into some more. Everything about it hit me. 

White Light/White Heat too. Jesus. Nothing prepares you for that in 1988. Six songs. One of the few albums that'll feel like you're hearing it for the first time despite having heard it countless times. To me, anyway. Just a fuzzy visceral hang, with the occasional soft gauziness of a tender moment that's sure to be fleeting. Or a doctor yelling at a nurse, mid-shock treatment, with a voice that somehow overpowers the drums and blaring guitars in the mix. I could go on and on, and I'm sure I will some more…..hence the “1”. 

(I figured I'd toss another blahg up here since it's been a minute. There's more to come. Always.)

 

Oh yeah, I'll leave the lyrics to a tune I wrote for the guy the day after he went. Just banged it out using that 3 Chord method I had learned from Uncle Lou. I’d attach a recording of me playing this, but it’d be more fun to hear it requested sometime... or you can just wait for it to appear on some EP down the way.

I don't know why the formatting is so large plus I had to change the font to construction yellow because otherwise it was invisible. It's like the Metal Machine Music of font size/color, so it stays. Not like I have a choice. Damn you HTML!

The Ostrich

Solemn family trips you’d always have to take
In Connecticut, by a New York lake
Bitter look on the old man’s face
Gave you something he could never take away

Doctor asks about your schooling
You know, the guys, the girls, your friends
Grown ups talking just a room away
Growing tired of having to defend yourself

Say it starts off with the Ostrich
Could be a craze there for the kids
Maybe something different happens
What could be more different than the Ostrich?

Every metro has its wonder
You can hide there in plain sight
with this you’d mine for stories
injected smack into the night

Imagine one of those parties
Where everything takes place
Afterwards when all the blood and baubles 
get swept up
They’ll see the gift you left behind, 
A beating heart wrapped up in lace


The street just winds up shifting
So you went back to your dad
For 50 dollars weekly
You’d type and drink and drink and drink

When it was discovered
That you never went away
There was a line around the Beacon
and no more ConEd bill to pay

Known to be a prickly sweetheart
An enfant terrible
Moody bitterness and violence
Sometimes heaven, sometimes hell

Sometimes subway, sometimes scooter
The occasional fuck you
Even when you faltered
You’d say “it’s more than critics do”

There’ll always be some suffering
Is that the price one pays for peace?
Your lover in the golden hour
Life force flowing towards release

 

 

Soon To Be Mine 

Sometimes you don't know what your songs are about. Sometimes you do. Sometimes you don't want to know. This particular song was built from a few different lyrical spare parts I had hanging around for years, then I finally just forced my own hand and wrote and recorded it one snowy night in NJ (I have a bunch of tracks I have to digitize at some point, this being one of 'em). I'll have to unearth the tape/disc someday and post it here sometime soon. 

Any old how, the chords and melody pretty much leapt out of me. I guess if you spend enough time thinking about a song, sometimes it shows up on your doorstep fully formed (or something like it). There was no way it wasn't going to be Waits-y, I suppose. 

Anyway, the first line was inspired by my great uncle John, who had been shot with what he claimed was a 50 Caliber machine gun while jumping out of a plane in the war. He told me about this as we sat and smoked at a table, post breakfast. He had his shirt off, and you would have thought he'd tangled with a tiger shark or something. Scarred doesn't cover it. Dents and holes and rips. So, I had to ask. 

He said he didn't remember the pain of being shot, it was the lying in a field, freezing and wet and lying in his own blood while he was wondering what was next for him as he lost consciousness that stuck with him. Then he woke up in a hospital. 

 

I didn't know, 20 some years later, that this was going to find its way into a song of mine. Yet, when I was looking for that first line, with the instrumental track recorded, John just sprung to mind. Then the rest of the story is completely fictional, as far as I can tell. 

 

Anyway, I hope whichever version you hear of it is a good one. 

 

Soon To Be Mine

 

My parachute, like me, was shot full of holes

As I descended from heaven to the fiery rows

My guts all around me, I was shivering with cold

Then I remembered what I always have known

 

(chorus)

It’s a slippery slope

It’s a blurry black line

It might be all yours

but it’s soon to be mine

 

I went home to Missouri then I got out of there

Lit up for the city with no conscience or cares

Ma, I got that promotion, you get that package I sent?

Tell Pop that I’m sorry, we’re just different men

 

When I got with Loretta, we were so sinful at first

Next thing I’m doing her makeup in the back of a hearse

One day I was flying not in a plane but the bar

Some tourists stayed too long now no one knows where they are

 

You might remember the old man using road flares and chains

He only wanted directions, he walked away with some names

In order to do this, you know you’ll have to do that

Keep yourself busy, make sure the big guys stay fat

 

Now I’m worth more in winter, still I don’t see a pale horse

Just the occasional nightmare still, there’s little remorse

I believe there is nothing, my lungs filling up fast

And I know there is no one to find all that I've stashed

(Oh and bonus self-impressed fact: I dashed off another song right after I got done recording Soon To Be Mine. I have no idea what inspired this or where the words came from, but I should probably bring it back. I mean, it's timely and short. So take that, Mickey Rooney!)

 

In The Throes

 

Dissemination, public exposure

Imparting direction so we can take over

and over and over and over and over again

Live by the code that a messenger sent

Too easy to write off the populist bent

Still no one knows where our dignity went

 

Flow like some champagne down the sink

We’re in the throes

 

This property’s ours it don’t have any owners

The vehicle functions though the miles have rolled over

Zips up her jacket, says “give us a moment or two”

Was casting a spell now you’re checking the line

There’s no interference at least not on mine

It’s human nature to ruin a good time

Fucking ….why?

 

Come see me sometime and maybe you'll hear one or both of these. No, that's not a threat. 

Autumn/Harvest/Embracing Everything Dying All Around 

When school was still taking hold in those later days of September, the air dried up and things seemed more vital. It can’t be that different these days for kids in school. Granted, I was a weird kid, but once that initial dread and monotony of the school day took hold, it wasn’t all that bad. Okay yeah it was that bad, but once the callouses that had softened over the summer break started to re-form, you could deal with it for the most part. 

 

There was always some new album or movie that would come out around the end of summer or early fall. Plus, there were always some kids willing to swap whatever albums they obtained over the summer months so that we could tape our own copies. Then you’d have two new (even if it was old stuff it was still new to you) albums on one cassette. I also remember bringing blank cassettes over to friends' houses just so I could use their stereo system to record whatever albums their parents and/or siblings had. So much gold. 

 

I remember some of those tapes. Some I still have, I think. The awesome 120 minute Maxell that had Tonight’s the Night, On The Beach and Zuma on it. That one inevitably broke, as did a lot of the 120 min cassettes. I also had a few cassettes I’d primarily record 45s onto. Weird stuff. One off hardcore 7-inches, promotional crap, Dickey Goodman’s Mr. Jaws, and more. I’d be fascinated by certain B sides. There was so much out there. There still is, I know, but it mostly hits different now. Maybe that’s the mortality talking. 

 

Tom Petty always had cool B sides. It’s ‘Raining Again’ or ‘Trailer’. Or ‘Make That Connection’. Stuff like The Replacements “I’ll Be You” single, with the B side being ‘Date to Church’ (with Tom Waits!) or Petty’s ‘You Don’t Know How It Feels’  with the immortal ‘Girl On LSD’ on the flip. I still have a ton of these old 45s. I still have some 45s from an old busted jukebox some friends and I found in the woods way back when. The '80s. Who the hell dumps a jukebox out in the middle of the woods? Those cassettes and albums got me through lots. 

 

I know I could go on and on like some penny ante Michener, trying to gather as much imagery as I can to convey that autumnal feeling, where everything around you is dying yet the color of life becomes more vivid. It’s a reminder. Live. Get out there and live. Try and fit 3 albums onto that Maxell 120. 

 

For the record, I also remember bagging high school on a fall Thursday in 1990 or so to go watch Goodfellas at a local theater in PA. Twice. Snuck in the second time for free. Sorry, Marty.

 

Songs that weren’t harmed during the typing of this blahg:

 

John Prine - The Late John Garfield Blues

The Go Betweens - Cattle and Cane

Aaron Neville - Let’s Live

Bud Powell - Dusk in Sandi

The Shirelles - Please Go Away

Little Penny 

Little Penny -  This song has been around a little while. It’s definitely in elementary school by now, if not middle school. I want to say it was mostly written on a snowy night sometime around 2011. Jesus. Anyway, my wife Jenny was thumping away at her acoustic bass as we sat in our living room. She plucked out that opening riff. The opening riff, unbeknownst to us, is pretty much the same opening riff in the great Don Williams song ‘Tulsa Time’. No matter, we still took that fucker and ran with it. 


 

Next was the D F G verse, which wasn’t all that unique per se, but when I came up with a melody that was more major than minor, things got more interesting. The words pretty much came together once we had that first line. Do I know where Del Rio and Little Penny are? Nah. But they sounded cooler than saying Manchester and Gualala, so thanks to whatever map of Northern Cali I happened to be looking at when I found those two town names. I just wanted it to kind of capture the vibe of a trip to my sister-in-law’s place out around Anchor Bay we took a few months prior. 


 

The chorus just came to us. Pretty instantaneous. The coyote on the fence image was a real thing that the farmers up in NorCal would do, tie a coyote carcass to a fence. I guess as a warning to other coyotes. Seeing something like that will stick with ya. 


 

I know there are a few versions of this tune out there, but I think my fave is the one that she and I knocked out in some studio in Montgomery County, PA somewhere back in 2013. In fact, here it is (complete with tack piano played by yours truly and a slide part played on a guitar I wish I still had):


 

 

 Little Penny


 Came from Del Rio, wound up in Little Penny

Played kick the can around Anchor Bay

We still got burned, though the sun there wasn’t any

Stepped on a banana slug at Jess and Jay’s


 

There’s no hotel

The back seat, you’re sleeping

A coyote strung up on the fence


 

I drink cheap wine because it’s a buyer’s market

I made a mint, don’t ask me how

I know a place where they roll out the carpet

Roll out the barrels, roll out the fog

 

Well well well

Looks like you’ve been creeping

and I can see right through your skin

There’s no hotel, the back seat you’re sleeping...


 https://thebuyselltrades.bandcamp.com/track/little-penny

Sister Nite Eyes Released 

Without getting too wanky or precious about things, basically this song is just about capturing a mood. The hazy, love-buzzed days and nights that our pair of lovers share as they take care of what needs taking care of. We also get to see behind the curtains at a cafe for a verse. Just because.

The music came out pretty quickly (shout out to the A minor 6th chord), and the words were some type of nonsensical gibberish for a little while, until I finally found the right set of words that didn't drive me insane. 

I remember working at a loading dock in Camden NJ when I came up with the words. I'd have to get there at 5am (hey, at least there was no traffic that early), and more often than not there wasn't anything to do but wait for trucks. And write. 

It was an around-the-clock dock, so oftentimes the afternoon or late shift guys would leave their newspapers (remember those things?) or books around. One morning I was looking at the horse racing section in one of the newspapers lying around. That got me started, but I think the only thing I kept was what I used for the title. Maybe it was Night Eye's Sister or something. Who knows? All I know is there was a horse named Boca Mary that I regret not being able to shoehorn into this song somewhere. “Boca Mary breezed in…”.  Damn. Maybe in the next life, Boca Mary. 

Anyway I worked it for a few weeks, eventually landing on the “two lovers passing time” vibe. I just kept writing verses until the right ones presented themselves. 

Also: No Chorus. Just some instrumental break that still is in need of some Johnny Smith-type guitar runs, or a breathy baritone sax or something. Guess we'll save that for the Hollywood Bowl.

 

Sister Nite Eyes Released

 

Sits half up in her seat

Says “you are a hangover”

Head aches with every beat

of a waking heart

 

They went to see Mr. Green

Bike ride ten in the morning

Over cobblestone streets

Through the mist again

 

The grill hisses and speaks

Myra wipes down the tables

Dishwasher gives his two weeks

Sign goes up again

 

A nightcap is spent

Drinking vodka and yawning

She tells him “you’re quite the gent”

He helps her with her coat

 

They ordered oranges and cream

Two snifters of brandy

She had a pink bathtub dream

Her toes were pruned and curled

 

Sits half up in her seat

says “you are a hangover”

Head aches with every beat

Of a waking heart

 

(Song availible to listen to on the main page of site)